Life Changes All the Time

Sometimes it's a good thing. Sometimes not so much.  Either way, there's always stress of some kind.

Last Monday I was let go from my job after 14 years.  I hadn't been happy at my job since I was transferred in January.  Apparently I was unhappy enough to make some decisions "they" weren't happy about.  Oh well.  I still stand by my decision, & when I lay my head down each night, it is without guilt. 

I got so upset about things that I agreed to go back on all of my meds to help with the stress.  I couldn't think straight & was crying all the time.  I was constantly angry at the world.  Life at home was affected which meant I was unable to be the wife & mother that I want to be.  My behavior directly affects David & Erin. I was tired of it.

Instead, I have made the very conscious decision to be fine.  I'm not going to allow their foolish decision to direct my life.  I'm still a little lost.  After all, I've been working at one thing or another since I was old enough to babysit.  Last Thursday after I dropped Erin at school, I was driving back home & called David.  I asked him "So now what do I do?"  Being the supportive guy that he is, he told me to go home, relax & start scrapbooking.  As far as he is concerned, I should take a break.  My friends seem to agree.

Each day I'm trying to do some chores around the house - things that I've wanted to accomplish but have been too busy working.  Laundry is the bane of my existence.  I truly despise doing it, but as of right now, I have to fold the towels & I'm done for tonight.  Of course, it will start up again tomorrow, but 90% of it is done.

I'll start looking for another job in earnest next week.  But for now, I'm fine.