Friday, May 08, 2009

I Made It

I got through yesterday & not too badly if I do say so myself. May 7th is my mother's birthday, & yesterday she would have been 70 years old. I can't really imagine that. In fact, when I think of what my mom looked like, I remember her from the Mother's Day before she died. I have a picture of her with my brother Seth & me. That is how I see her in my mind's eye. That is when I can picture her alive. It's hard because my last memory of her is from when the paramedics took her out of our house to bring her to the hospital.
Yesterday, I had a migraine. I usually feel sick on my mom's birthday. I guess it's the stress of the day & missing her. I did my best to focus on the day & ignore her birthday. I didn't cry. I didn't scream. I tried to be stress-free. And to some degree, it worked.
Happy birthday Mommy! I miss you & I love you.

8 comments:

Sandra said...

Happy Birthday to your mom and hugs to you :-)

Magi said...

Well done! It's good to see you here again.

fricke92 said...

Happy birthday to your mom. Hope your headache eases soon. Hugs.

Leah Mei said...

Happy birthday to your mom, Tammie. I hope you spend a wonderful day recalling happy memories.

Candy said...

You may not have cried, but you've got me going now.

Happy Birthday to your Mom.

Super Mommy said...

Tammie - I'm glad this angst is behind you - I cannot imagine your pain.

Hope you have a grand Mother's Day with your precious gift! Hugs to you!!

Vivian M said...

Happy birthday to your Mommy and I can't wait to hear how you celebrate June 1st!

Shari McConahay said...

I am with you on this one. Missing our mommy is a very hard thing to do, especially with all the milestones and our children growing up without them, its a hard pill to swallow, but just now that both your mom & my mom are watching over our families, keeping us safe and know that we are happy.