Thursday, July 19, 2007

Ramblings


Wow! When David showed me this picture I nearly flipped. It's been a very long time since I liked a picture that anyone took of me. Let's face it. My nose is always red & my hair has gotten white. On the other hand, I'm a lot older than I was in the last picture I liked which by the way was taken at my wedding. Oh. That was 19 years ago next month.
I never knew that I could become comfortable in my own skin, but I have. I've accepted myself (for the most part) for who I am. I'll never be the woman with the amazing figure & the pearly white smile. However, I've realized that I'm a long way from the kid who moved to Florida at 16 & hated it.
Who am I now? Let's see.
I am a person with a career that I really enjoy even with the trouble that's involved. During the week I get to speak with adults & help people get where they want to or need to be. On Sundays, I teach 1st grade. That's for my soul since I've wanted to be a teacher since I was 5 years old. I love that I can get children to enjoy learning about being Jewish & having fun at the same time.
I am a person who loves an incredible man & is loved back by the same man. It's been a long, hard haul & worth every minute. I have to say with everything we've been through, I'd do all over again. Gladly.
I am a person who has been lucky enough to become a parent. I am totally in love with my daughter. I've always wanted 6 children but am happily settling for the 1 that David was willing to deal with. It's a good thing too because Erin challenges me every day. I look in on her each night before going to sleep & thank G-d for smiling down on us.
I am a person with a wide range of friends. The adoption community has brought me to people I would never have had the occasion to meet before. Parenthood led me to other mothers who've been there done that & understand everything I'm feeling - love, frustration, sadness, anger - the whole range of emotions.
I guess I'm pretty happy with who I've become. Yup.

6 comments:

Sandra said...

Tammie, I LOVE this post! And I love that picture of you, my friend. Like you, it is very rare for me to like a picture of myself.

I am proud of you for feeling comfortable in your own skin; I am still working on it ;-)

Lisa said...

I'm likin' that picture, too! And you SHOULD feel comfortable with the wonderful you that you are. And I can say that I am honored to have you as one of my dearest friends.

Vivian M said...

Tammie, I really love this post, and I absolutely love this picture of you! But most of all I love having you as a true friend. You are beautiful inside and out!

The Katie Starr Team said...

Hello my friend; love this pic of you!! I know it has been awhile since I posted but I have been busy trying to move up to your neck of the woods and guess what.....we will be there in ONE MONTH...aaaaahhhhhhh!! We sold our house yesterday and bought our new one today. I will give you all the details very soon :)
BTW, I like you just the way you are which by the way is awesome!!

Shari McConahay said...

Tammie, my new friend, this is a great pic of you. I know what you mean, I am not very photogenic at all! I have just known you for a short time now, but I already know what a great and special person you are! So, my fellow blog rambler, don't wory, be happy with who you are!
BTW, I'm back to blogging! : )

Michelle said...

You Rock. I am totally trying to find peace with my body and the way I look in pictures. There is one picture I like because I think I look skinny. You are an awesome, beautiful person! I am so honored to have 'met you'